CBT Week Two

 Observations and feelings about recent activities 

-I have "slept" 8 hours a day but spent at least three hours of this time not actually sleeping but restlessly eating or waking up frequently

-I did not go to bed at a proper time (even though I didn't have to work) because I was either eating, watching a show, or on my phone

-Dinner time is rarely enjoyable for me when it should be the opposite

-Mornings are usually spent in a panic or depression because I have slept in too late and I feel guilty as a mother

-The times during the day I spend with Stella could be spent in a more mutually satisfying way for bother her and I by getting out of the house and experiencing things

-None of my times were documented for meals

I obviously need to focus on a routine that maximizes enjoyment and minimizes the time I spend beating myself up for missing out on opportunities, or feeling exhausted from lack of focus on enjoyment. I need to develop a better relationship with food and learn how to actually sit down and enjoy dinner with the family rather than avoiding eating.

I need to practice better sleep hygiene for my mental well-being and for the happiness found in each day. I think this will help me not only be more productive and lead a more meaningful life but it will make me a better mother. I think this will help me with my eating habits as well- if I just shift my schedule into a more reasonable schedule that corresponds with S and M's.

I want to learn how to enjoy painting and reading rather than "giving myself assignments."