Gratitude Day 2020

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 Not a surprising update to share that we spent the day at home. This whole year and all of it's holidays, birthdays, and other big moments have been spent within our little home. I'm not upset about it by any means- in fact I'd be worried when things ever go back to "normal" I'll beg to stay home like we did during the quarantine of 2020. I truly enjoy being here and going through the motions. A part of me does want to scream because of the monotony and cyclical groundhogs day nature of it all but that's why I enjoy leaving my house to work throughout the week most weeks.

M and S picked up a Thanksgiving meal from his grandma and grandpa's. S, M and I all ate a lunch together and she got to have all of the turkey and trimmings. I was just fine with it- more than fine quite frankly. S missed out on her nap (we slept in again today, I have to stop doing that) and was uncharacteristically fussy for our family zoom meeting with my mom, aunt and brother/sister-in-law. That bummed me out because I wanted her to be able to interact more with my aunt- but it is what it is. 

I've finally got her in bed and now I have my alone time. M is watching Son-In-Law in the living room while I muster up the energy to get on the bike again. I'll let the Thanksgiving gluttony settle for a bit before I exercise. 

I've been forcing myself to write a daily gratitude list but once I am writing I could go on forever with the things in my life, small and large, that I am endlessly grateful for. In honor of Thanksgiving I'll record today's here.

Thanksgiving 2020 Gratitude List

1. My family's current health and happiness.

2. The sunshine of my life S and her rare kisses.

3. My sobriety.

4. Thanksgiving stuffing.

5. My education.

6. My employment and my paycheck.

7. Nordstrom Rack.

8. Black Friday sales.

9. Days off with S and M.

10. Skincare.

11. Water.

12. My stationary bike.

13. My artistic talent.

14. Making love.

15. Clean bedsheets and candles.

16. VACCINES.

Comments

  1. SobrieTDecember 3, 2020 at 5:28 PM

    I also am just fine with staying home, and worry about when things go back to normal. Not so much that I'll drink, but I'm already annoyed (pre-annoyed?) with answering questions about why I'm not drinking. I often liken this time to a peaceful Groundhog's day - my husband and I get a good laugh about the monotony. Also funny, is that my husband and I were thrilled to discover that Son-in-Law is a favorite movie for both of us, when we first started dating. Sounds like you are getting into a good routine and a good place overall.

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    1. No Longer in DenialJanuary 25, 2021 at 12:46 PM

      Oh my god- M and I watched Son-in-Law on Thanksgiving. Our favorite Thanksgiving movie as well! Thank you so much for your response, I've been horrible at updating the blog lately but I'm back at it again. Hugs

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